Should I go on antidepressants?

Only a psychiatrist can make the diagnosis of depression and prescribe the right safe antidepressant for you. You can go to the site nami.org which is the site for the National Alliance on Mental Illness. On their site you can find the phone number for your local chapter. They are there for support, information and they have the best resources for the help that you need in your area. The fact that depression runs in your family is a very good reason to get some help. I can imagine it is very hard with a husband in the military and being separated from him. You should be very proud of yourself and your husband. Please give NAMI a try they can help you. It could be a matter of just needing a therapist to talk to, but you need a diagnosis first. Take care of yourself and I thank your husband for what he is doing for all of us. And you are suffering as a result of it. I am sorry.